I'm unsure if the way I've been feeling lately is directly related to a) the mini-pill I started last week b) residual post-baby hormones c) total lack of sleep or d) all of the above. But I feel as though I have a hole in my head. The hole is reminiscent of the feeling you get after a night of a few cocktails (not too many, just like 2), you simply don't feel "all there." Maybe its the change of seasons, the hurricane-like winds we've been having lately, the totally huge moon outside, or what. But I just don't feel whole. I'm constantly looking around, not knowing what I was doing the minute before, not sure what to do next. The motions are present, stuff is getting done, but I can't concentrate on anything, or maybe its that I'm concentrating on everything. I have Sylvia's birthday coming up, Easter (which is not a big deal in our house), the first Tower Grove Farmer's Market, another job for the magazine I shoot for just came through, and the whole getting through each day.
I am happy, I am satisfied, I need to focus on the good, small accomplishments. Another day, another fresh start, right? Maybe I need to stop filling the hole in my head with excessive amounts of chocolate. Cuz let's just be honest, it doesn't really work when your "cure" is also part of the problem!!
**updated**
Talk about hole in my head: I totally spaced on Easton's 4 month and Sylvia's 3 year doctor's appointment. Didn't call them, didn't have a good excuse, just completely forgot. Wow.
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